Why it is trauma to talk to White people about Race?

‘I love this he said, rubbing his hands together, I love this debates on race.’

Really? Because I’m having severe anxiety, my heart is going…

You’re having a great time, debating race, and historically this is not a conversation that has worked out well for me. At the age of 48 and having been called a nigger in a pram at 6 months old, I have 47.5 years of micro/macro racial aggression’s and collective pain experience of talking with White people about Race, those interactions on the most part ended badly.

So while you are sharpening your white privilege debate tool wit, this is my ACTUAL lived experience, and when it comes to these kind of conversations my BRAIN sees this as trauma, and it has to protect.

And so this is what happened this week, and we got through by intersectional. inter-actional, allegory, disclosure and communication. But it came at a cost.

So already your body is in amygdala response, fight, flight. freeze. You froze when you were a child and experienced overt racism, it put you in a time capsule. You fled from conversations you knew would only end-up in racial conflict - You bowed your head. Said nothing. To FIGHT takes it’s toll and you are doing that while you FREEZE, FLIGHT, FIGHT. You have been in these amygdala conversations with White People for as long as you can remember and it’s still Trauma.

And you’re in a corner, and do you choose FIGHT?

You choose FREEZE hateful mind occupancy or frozen emotional naive?

YOU choose FLIGHT imagination has no/all doors, or perception, press buttons.

Having conversations about Blackness with Black People is Home. There is the Difference/Diversity.